For the past few weeks, life has started to completely lose its meaning, what-so-ever. It feels as if every moment of the day and night I'm drowning and the surface is just out of reach. Failures keep pilings up as though they have taken an oath to not let me succeed. Tonight was particularly hard because I have a ton of assignments to get through but my mind just does not want to get on track to work. I keep reassuring myself that as soon as I finish this next episode I will get to work. But I don't. I just don't feel like working. I don't want to write the 5 essays that I have pending and I don't want to make a fancy PowerPoint presentation to showcase in class. I just want to wrap up in my comforter and shut the world out. Sadly we can not do that. We or I can not just let time slip by because there is so much at stake. I just can't risk it.